04 August 2015
03 August 2015
02 August 2015
What is it that blocks my heart from doing what it aches to do: fill with love? Is it hatred, anger, fear, anxiety, an overactive mind, an inactive mind, depression, carelessness, apathy, selfishness? This should be the point of interest and research of every one of us: the question our meditation and Taiji should constantly address.
01 August 2015
Freedom, the only freedom we really possess, is whether to embrace the pondering slowness of choice or reject it for the sake of a truly connected life. A connected life is one that operates so quickly that it cannot be considered, cannot be thought (about), only actively engaged and entered. Life is then not something that happens to me but something I do.
The awfulness of language is that it inevitably homogenises life by assuming that it can adequately express, explain, communicate all levels of experience. In fact so pervasive is language that any experience or perception that cannot be reduced to speech, cannot be spoken, is treated as trivial and disregarded. In this respect language and capital are the same, and it would have been impossible for capitalism to have developed without the smoothing out, the averaging, the reducing of language. This is the exact opposite of the heart, which holds dear and resonates with all those experiences that resist the vulgarisation of representation. We all have amazing experiences that shake our very being, only to pale considerably once we've told all and sundry about them. In fact we use language to reduce the power of life – to constantly bring us back to ourselves. Some things – heart events – are best left in the heart, though the head will try to steal anything it can put to its own advantage.
Movement in Taiji hopefully brings about an intensive (internal) transformation as well as an extensive (external) one. I move not to change my physical location/configuration but to effectuate an internal journey of change and becoming. This journey – effectively a series of intense feelings – is felt in the heart, and always threatens disequilibrium. The degree of intensity then depends upon my ability to stay sunk and sober whilst undergoing the intoxication of heart work. In time and with practice I develop both a centre, focused and dense, and an openness, expansive and embracing, that on their own would destroy me but together offer the perfect instrument for navigating a meaningful and inclusive course through the vagaries of life.


