19 October 2006

Feeling and believing

Far more important than feeling – being able to feel energy – is believing. Believing allows you to be in a process of becoming – to abide within energy – regardless of whether you feel that energy. The problem with energy is that not only do words not suffice to describe or elucidate it, but the act of attempting to describe it pulls you out of the world of energy and into a more mind centred world – the world of language. I would say that much of the disconnectedness we suffer now as human beings began when we started to use and rely on language – when we began to appeal to each others thinking and imagination rather than directly to each others hearts. Communication is heart to heart and not mind to mind or voice to ear or page to eye. It is a matter of energy and definitely not language. Language can carry energy as well as meaning – poets do it all the time – but so often the meaning overrides the energy – especially once the communication is no longer face to face. It's the problem with any man-made system – delightful and fascinating it may be but it is always the refuge of the fearful – those that would far rather not have to face up to the consequences and responsibilities of a life within the bigger world – the world of energy. Such responsibilities have nothing to do with social expectations – having a well paid job, being a good parent, or whatever. They are all to do with unwaveringly travelling the path of becoming a being of, with, and for energy – an energy being.

2 comments

Anonymous said...

I see what you mean about retreat into language stemming from fear, but don't we also have to take risks - in this case the risk of getting too involved in language - in order to engage with yet one more aspect of energy? Pat

taiji heartwork said...

I think it's all a matter of how rather than what. Studying anything could make you either more connected or less – depending upon how you go about it. What's important though are not those small gradual gains we make by getting deeper into whatever it is we are studying – they are inevitable – just a matter of intelligent application and time – but the mind and earth shattering sudden realisation that the world we inhabit – the world our study and our approach to living makes for us – is confined, blinkered and unnatural. Such realisations come by the grace of God (personified of course) – they are a matter of calling rather than work – a matter of and for destiny – although the correct work (corrected work) inevitably readies you for them. The real work is then a matter of turning that realisation, and the rational extrapolations and energetic consequences of that realisation, into an internal – an all consuming – reality. An extreme example would be Dr Chi's introduction to Jesus: brought to him by a friend of his wife, Dr Chi having been readied – opened and weakened (no resistance possible) – by a life threatening illness. Dr Chi, dying and with nothing to lose, was in a position of immense power – anything he took up at that point was going to change his life forever. Luckily he chose something that gave him another 23 years, and turned him into a saint. A equally extreme example would be the first time your teacher adjusts your posture by thrusting your bum in and down. The student can either feel it as mere postural tinkering – simply a matter of realignment – or can feel the power of the teacher's energy driving through their sacrum and connecting it forever with the heart of the earth – driving it actually into the earth – thereby presenting the student not only with a new posture but with a completely new way of relating to everything. What is it that makes a student take it one way or the other? Intelligence, grace, dissatisfaction, suffering, readiness, destiny? Who knows? I suspect it's just fundamental connectedness.