The real work begins when I finally accept that I can't realistically have the best of all worlds: that I have to make a choice and commitment to a singular course – a destiny – otherwise life will dribble away, and I'll be left, at the end, wishing I'd had more courage and less distractions – wishing I'd listened to my teacher. Time and energy are limited, pitifully so, considering the enormity of the task. Which to chose: Internal or External?