Motivation is everything. So be honest. What drives the work? What is at the core of this compulsion to work the Internal at every opportunity? If you find it’s something other than love of God, something less selfless, like fear or duty or habit or, God forbid, ambition, then simply change your mind. Mindfulness is not just bringing the mind to bear, it is also the ability to be fluid, to yield, to make it what it needs to be.