I have friends and acquaintances here who regularly take megadoses of psychotropic substances: mushrooms, ayahuasca, LSD, ketamin, MDMA, to induce 'spiritual' experiences. And they do indeed have 'amazing' experiences (which in their minds makes them 'special') but, being spiritually immature, they fail to realise that it's not the intensity or even the quality of their experiences that matter, but what in Taiji we call 'mind continuous'. Can you keep a thread of internal quiet going through your day?