Energy & commitment

My teacher has always been at pains to point out to students that one doesn't really feel energy. One may readily feel the effects of energy – its traces, passages and gatherings through the body – and one may of course respond to it. The job at hand though is to work in such a way that one becomes immersed in it. This requires whole-hearted endeavour: working with a forever opening heart, and learning to channel more and more of one's energy into the work; at the end of a session one's exhaustion should be so complete that no part of you resists the call of energy. Recovery – rest and recuperation – in a sense bring you out of this world and back to the mundane; replenishment, as well as refilling the vessel usually means a drawing in of the threads of connexion. As the work becomes more and more engulfing – as you learn to channel more and more of your energy and commitment (heart) into it – this disconnexion ceases and immersion and exhaustion are complete – not only are you fully immersed but you are also fully empty – energy is no longer yours – what you receive is so quickly and readily passed into the work that at any particular moment you possess next to nothing.